Friday, August 19, 2005

L'infantile terrible of CJC

I've totally lost faith in the human race, and its struggle and manipulation of authority and power. What's wrong with the world you say? Hell kid, you obviously have seen nothing beyond that fucked up comfort zone you're proudly shouting out from.

Today we went for auditions on Teacher's Day. And today we failed to get through. I'm feeling fucking pissed now I swear, but nevertheless I will not take it out on anybody but myself. I'm not going to go about all those cliche shit about how we sound much better than the other bands, although that's a fact. But rather, I'll just go on and blame myself. For going sharp throughout the song. Fine, I accept that. But even if politics played a fucking role in this shit, that's also my fault, since it's ME they have an issue with. Geez... What has the world degenerated into? A lump of waste matter.

For Pete's sake, your struggle for authority might make you seem so almighty, but don't come around and preach about being mature and able to integrate into the competitive society. Raising yourself to a 'I'm higher than Thou status' is such a juvenile, infantile act. Nevermind, since it's what you guys believe in, or probably live for. I've had enough, I guess it's the last of my auditions in college. Don't wanna jeorpardise other people who were competent enough of their chance to perform. I've had about enough. I'm over that point. My head's in a whirl now, my anger was just way too overwhelming. I'm not sure what I'm mad at either. But for sure, I am mad at myself. Loser me.

And you say Brave New World. I beg to differ.

posted@7:46 PM

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